Where is Heaven, or is it already here?

12-07-22

What is Heaven and where is it located? That is a question that almost everyone throughout history has tried to answer and have probably gotten it wrong. I’m probably wrong too and my understanding of it has changed over the years. Perhaps what I used to believe was correct and what I believe now is incorrect. Or neither is correct. In past blogs I’ve touched on what life is about on Earth and what the after life may be. This is a blog I’ve been tossing around for a while to continue that train of thought. This will be a few thoughts about heaven, from my understanding now compared to what my understanding used to be.

First, though, some fun. “Ooh, baby, do you know what that's worth? Ooh, Heaven is a place on Earth. They say in Heaven, love comes first. We'll make Heaven a place on Earth. Ooh, Heaven is a place on Earth”. “Heaven isn’t too far away. closer to it every day.” “Who’s going to bring me heaven, when heaven’s already here?” And, of course, my wedding song. “Baby you're all that I want, when you're lyin' here in my arms, I'm findin' it hard to believe, we're in heaven.” As fun as that is for me to always think about those songs when I think about Heaven, they may not be too far from the truth.

The one thing all those songs have in common is that they are about being with someone you love and calling that Heaven. I was born and raised Catholic and that shaped my belief of what heaven is, early in my life. Not too much has changed now, but a little has. Growing up I felt that heaven was a physical place in the universe, not on earth. (I honestly don’t know anymore what the “official” Catholic belief about heaven is, so I’ll just keep writing.) Somewhere in my late teens and early twenties I began to believe that it probably wasn’t an actual physical place, but I didn’t know what it was, so I just accepted that I didn’t know it all yet. Growing up, in my twenties, and today, though, I still feel that whatever/wherever heaven is, it will be with my loved ones.

During my fifteen-year spiritual journey with my daughter – who is now the ghost beside my bed – I feel that I learned a lot more about heaven. Anna talked to me, in my dreams, or her dreams that she brought me into. (I’m still not sure which way that went, or if they were a mix of both.) She also took me to places that weren’t on earth, where she was able to walk and talk. Something she was not able to do, at all, on earth. During those conversations and field trips, I began to understand that there are planes (or realms, or levels) that our souls can travel to, that aren’t physically located. (I still maintain that everything, including levels of existence, are in our one universe, but not necessarily physical.) I don’t think the places we visited were heaven, because they didn’t feel like “the end”, but they were definitely not on this physical earth that I know.

Referencing past blogs, or past thoughts that I haven’t put down yet, “I believe, that after we're gone, the spirit carries on.” I literally believe that matter and energy can’t be destroyed so our bodies decay and become worm food, but out soul/spirit ascends or descends to another plane of existence where we may, or may not, have bodies. I believe there are levels of heaven and levels of hell. There is probably a final level of heaven where your spirit can no longer ascend, and you become one with the universe. There is probably also a lowest level too, where you can’t descend any lower. That’s not relevant to this blog, but if there’s an up for our spirits, there must be a down too. At each level of ascension, your spirit learns and experiences different things. That’s the main point of life on earth, actually. To learn what we can about everything we can. I believe that you can probably bring that knowledge with you. I don’t know if our spirits take physical form in the other levels of existence, but I firmly believe that you eventually get to a level where you are no longer physical and you are just energy. After our spirit leaves our earthly body, there may be a few physical levels before the spiritual levels but eventually your spirit becomes just energy in the universe.

When your spirit gets to the “final level” that’s what I would call Heaven. It’s within the boundaries of the physical universe, but you are not a physical being. Based on my journey with my daughter, I firmly believe that once my spirit is at that final level of existence, my spirit will recognize her spirit and we’ll be happy together forever. I believe that will be the case with all my family members. In the early years of my conversations and field trips with Anna, I think she was just showing me other realms or other possibilities or other (parallel) universes. In the last few years though she began having her “absent” seizures where her body would go completely limp, and her eyes were wide open and staring at nothing. I never went where she went but I felt where she went, and I knew she went “home”. I also got the feeling that she was happy to be there but sad at how we were feeling. She did that several times but always came back to us on earth, until the last time when she didn’t. Those last few years of those absent seizures is really when it hit me that Anna was only a spirit from another plane, put into a human body, to bring me on this spiritual journey of love, anger, joy and sorrow. She made me realize that those song lyrics are all true. Heaven wasn’t too far away. No one could bring me heaven if heaven was already here. When she way lying in my arms it wasn’t hard to believe that we were in heaven. So, even though Heaven is a much higher spiritual plane of existence than here, while Anna was here, she made heaven a place on earth, until my spirit meets her spirit again in the final level of spiritual ascension.