Crumbled Religion

(A five part poem to explain my transformation from hardcore religious to hardcore spiritualist)

Part 1: Leaving the Road

It all began when I left the Road

Went six long years on my own

I left the shelter of my life

Learned real fast what’s wrong and right

I knew the books but not the rules

Had to learn from real life school

Foundation built and still was strong

Cracks began and I went on

Part 2: Underwater

Constant prayer with constant strife

Was not prepared for my real life

Still prayed for God to show the way

As mental demons were drank away

Who is mankind to know which path?

Who are we to know His wrath?

Can prayer save time in sentencing?

Won’t judge you, don’t judge me

Lessons learned while in the deep

Lessons learned that I still keep

Foundation built and still was strong

Cracks grew wide but I went on

Part 3: The Priest

Despite the cracks, I wanted more

To teach and preach was in store

No good woman could be found

Shared my views with those around

Cracks stayed wide but didn’t grow

Nothing more or less to show

To be a priest or something more

Prayed to know what was in store

Part 4: The Journey

Still saw things in black and white

Until that fateful summer night

My journey started at that time

Spent fifteen years on my climb

It started slow but grew in strength

Visions of heaven without constraints

Religion is flawed but faith is pure

She led me there and I learned

Shades of grey became so clear

Hiding knowledge based on fear

Corrupt control is now the game

I’ve gone beyond what they proclaim

More cracks connected and they leaked

More knowledge now but not yet peaked

Foundation built but was transformed

Religion gone – my faith reborn

Part 5: Transformed Words

From all that I have learned these years

There’s still so much that is unclear

Despite how much I have grown

So much yet is still unknown

Foundation built when I was born

Still with me but now transformed

Walls are gone but words have stayed

Followed now without constraint